Sitting comfortable for months and then BAM
A massive wave of dysphoria
People have treated me differently from the time I began identifying as something other than female. The first time I tried to pass I had people looking at me like I was crazy. Friends started dropping away like flies around an electric fence. Family started taunting me and rejecting anything I had to say, getting to the point where I would get into arguments over something so simple as boxers.
I gave up. I started dressing “girly” again. I couldn’t take the pressure of everyone falling away from me. Told myself I was better off like this, where people kind of cared for me.
But god damn, I’m not happy.